Difficult Reading

I am not the best reader in the world, and I read very slowly. Since I read so slowly, I don't like reading fiction because it would take up so much of my time, I would have not enjoyed it. So I like reading books that have a chance at giving me some knowledge in a subject area that is meaningful to me. Unfortuntely, these books end up being really difficult to read, which makes me go even slower. Anyways, I still like them.

For example, Stacy gave me "Freedom of the Will" by Jonathan Edwards. I love the book, it is just difficult. Tell me what you think: concerning the definition of necessary, Edwards writes, "Things are said to be what must be, or necessarily are, as to us, when they are, or will be, though we desire or endeavour the contrary, or try to prevent or remove their existence; but such opposition of our always either consists in, or implies, opposition of our wills." I can tell you, at least for me, the context doesn't help that much either!